Fighting Me

Today i realized that no matter what people say you cant do, no matter what you yourself beleive you cannot do, the best revenge is to prove yourself - and them - wrong. I learned this when my father started yelling at me and calling me fat today. but he has no idea how it feels to walk down halways, feel eyes staring, and be helpless. What goes around comes around, and until then, my sister is helping me. We go walking every day and i cant be more thankful for her help.

It is like a river, calm, yet sublte through the eyes of a painter. But who is to say "Dont paint the river, for it may flood and bring forth bad memories". Whosoever is fearful of memories is fearful of love itself. Explain to me why the painter cannot paint the river? Tell me why he is suddenly starved the opportunity, to do what he loves, to paint the blues of the waters. And they counter "To paint memories with the brush is drawing fate with a pencil saying; 'This is how it is always to be'.

I wrote this during Civics class because i was really bored. I think that this can kind-of relate to life because it is kind of saying: Why spend your time doing what everyone else does, stacking the same type of memory, when you live to say that you did so much more.

New Diet

Okay guys, im trying a new diet. This is a cool one, which im calling "The EnKay Diet" I eat one slice of toast every morning ( with jelly on it ). I eat whatever lunch they have at school, then when i get home, i eat another slice of toast. Then i jog for 5 minutes on all the days i dont walk home, and i drink alot of water beacause it speeds up your metabolism. On the weekends, i fast dinner one day. This new diet is really working.

So today was pretty much of a drag. I'm trying to find a place to get my dress for prom. I found the perfect one, but it wasnt at the store when i went back.Lesson # 1: Everything happens for a reason. I just hope i find another dress similar to the one i want. If anyone has any ideas it would be really helpful, thanks.

EnKay :)

Inspire In Spite of....

Today I learned that it is important to encourage others, inspire them in spite of your distress or uncomfort. A smile, a compliment or words of inspiration today can save a suicidal mind. Theres a song that I always listen to that always lifts my spirits and gives me encouragement in my times of need, its called " Fuckin Perfect " by Pink. Now I know that the title seems kind of out there, but the actual song is really good.

EnKay :)